Today's run was awful. I walked out my door full of confidence that I was going on at least a 5 mile run. Then my legs reminded me that I did a time trial yesterday, that it was almost 90F out and that the humidity was pushing 70%. I was two miles in and feeling like complete crap, but still I ran, actually I had slowed to a jog at this point. Then I was going uphill and slowly started to walk. The voices started screaming in my head. Lazy, POS, you can still move forward so start moving. So I started running again. A half mile goes by my legs are burning i can feel every muscle I pushed to hard yesterday. So the internal dialog changes it becomes a debate. Are you a quitter? or are you just listening to your body? My first reaction was of course quitter, then I stopped pushing so hard and started walking. My heart rate started coming down, less burning in the legs. The debate raging on in my head. It's not easy to listen to your body. Today, I am glad I did. couple miles of running a couple miles of walking, hey at least I made it out the front door....
21 days to Baldwin Park!
Chapter Six, Thinking About My Purpose.
Life is a temporary assignment, how much easier does the world become when we know we don't have to worry about tomorrow? If Earth is only a layover onto a greater place it puts a few things into perspective. It does into the call of stewardship from before, if we are all just resting here, what can we do to help one another make this place a little more comfortable. Service to one another. Do we recognize the people in our life, help them to endure the journey our do we just place ourselves at the top of the food chain. I feel like a pendulum, I have been both, most recently I was selfish and it cost me. Previously, up until about year ago I was as giving as I could be and it was terribly abused. The lesson I suppose is about baggage, we and I need to work harder to make those around us and me more comfortable in this journey and not expect, but hope that the offer is repaid. sort of a pay it forward philosophy. The difficult component to this in my growth is working to help those i don't even know. The people who are not in my core. Over the years as I have felt my heart and kinship abused I built think walls to protect myself. I would die to protect those I truly loved. Now I am recognizing how interlaced we
are and that cutting off the rest of the world to care for so few is a wasted effort. The stewardship is in all of our hands to help and protect each other. from the person who just needs a smile to that stranger who needs help pushing their car out of the intersection. When do we get back to caring about one another?
The actual Chapter 6 question: How should the fact that life on earth is just a temporary assignment change the way I am living right now?
Lucky me I think I've answered it above. Look to help each other, teach your skills to others, be quick to offer a smile to a stranger, the world is to full of fear, we need to remember that everyone is not out to kill us and maybe with a few more smiles and kind worlds at the right times, maybe there would be less people actually out to kill one of us. Although the question goes further, I believe it pushes us to shake off the rampant materialism as well. Everyone likes nice things, I know I do. However, in light of the chapter lit seems to me life should be like a backpacking trip through Europe. Take only what you can carry, If you have to fit it in your ruck and your willing to haul it with you then you know it's important. That decided focus on the journey, take some pictures see the sites. If this our journey home then I want some pictures and memories of the journey, I want interesting dialog with new and wonderful people. I don't want more crap to shove up into my attic.
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